I'm More Than I Appear, and Almost A Year Older
I woke up yesterday and it dawned on me that next month I will be 24. I then realized that I have been out of college for almost two years.
And the next thought caught me off guard the most-
I haven't really done anything with my life.
After the past few months of people (people I know, random people, toooo many people) making comments on the fact that I went to school, spent all the money to do so and I now I only work retail. It makes me feel like an idiot. I feel like nothing I have done has made any real impact.
But then I know what I have done. I graduated High School with a dream of breaking into the music industry. I thought that one day I would get a Dove Award for Best Producer and then work on a album that goes Double Platinum! (Cheesy, I'm aware!) I went to College earned an associates and bachelors degree in Music Production and media type things to kick off that dream. Once my last quarter of finals was over, I skipped town three days later and I moved to Denver to live where the music is.
I guess the difference is, yes I work retail but my dreams are so much more than this. I know what I want, now I just have to spend the rest of my life chasing it.
I'm almost 24 and I have a burning passion to do so much more than I currently am. I want to be more than I apear to be. I will struggle to make a name for myself in an industry that is so totally male dominated.
I'll make it, or I live my life trying to get there. But, if God has other plans, I will make the best of the abundance He has given me.
As that over used saying goes, I'll bloom where I'm planted.
And the next thought caught me off guard the most-
I haven't really done anything with my life.
After the past few months of people (people I know, random people, toooo many people) making comments on the fact that I went to school, spent all the money to do so and I now I only work retail. It makes me feel like an idiot. I feel like nothing I have done has made any real impact.
But then I know what I have done. I graduated High School with a dream of breaking into the music industry. I thought that one day I would get a Dove Award for Best Producer and then work on a album that goes Double Platinum! (Cheesy, I'm aware!) I went to College earned an associates and bachelors degree in Music Production and media type things to kick off that dream. Once my last quarter of finals was over, I skipped town three days later and I moved to Denver to live where the music is.
I guess the difference is, yes I work retail but my dreams are so much more than this. I know what I want, now I just have to spend the rest of my life chasing it.
I'm almost 24 and I have a burning passion to do so much more than I currently am. I want to be more than I apear to be. I will struggle to make a name for myself in an industry that is so totally male dominated.
I'll make it, or I live my life trying to get there. But, if God has other plans, I will make the best of the abundance He has given me.
As that over used saying goes, I'll bloom where I'm planted.
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